"oh, i don't know!" laura said in despair
I can't concentrate. I feel like Laura before she found out there would be a literary that night in Little Town on the Prairie. I am so tired of everything. I want to go west -- or east! -- I want something to happen. I guess I want to just play, and I know I am too old.

"Never mind," Pa said soothingly. "You have been studying too hard, that is all."

I've been studying microfilm daily for two weeks. I guess that's it. I get up, go to the library, strain my eyes for half the day looking at negative images of poorly photographed type and end up with "scrolliosis" like you wouldn't believe. Then I come home and try to function normally the rest of the day, when all I want to do is close my eyes and recover. I can't read and relax; I can't knit and relax; I can't sit at the computer and relax. My eyes hurt and my back hurts. I just keep telling myself that interlibrary loaning microfilm is a heck of a lot cheaper than going to historical societies and looking at it on-site.

The film goes back in two days. Hopefully my grumpy mood will go with it.
- posted by pioneergirl at 1:56 AM